It's been while since I've blogged and so much has happened but I am BACK!!!! And so much content to share...
It is Tuesday 1:24 a.m EST And I was just thinking about my life and thinking about how I was raised. I started thinking about my Dad and one thing he would always tell me was I was nonchalant. Now, at the time I was younger and didn't understand what that word meant until I looked it up in the dictionary. And WOW it makes so much since now. You see I was always this type of person who was unmoved by things. And till this day it may have worked in my favor. When things are going great in my life you wouldn't know. When things are going horribly wrong you wouldn't know. Some how I have managed to remain poker face in most situations. I have come to realize that I cannot afford to mentally or emotionally shift; when the circumstances shifted. And Also, The God I serve is never changing. And because I am his child I have to adapt that same mindset.
I have learned that when life happens to just remain as calm as possible in those storms. I always refer to myself as palm trees. They endure so much, they sway left to right but that still have firm foundation. And that is the mentality I choose to adapt. Most days I don't have the answers, and I like to be one with my thoughts and emotions to work through those unknown moments. But I think its lost art when it comes to " I will be happy when this happens." And or " I will be settled once this happens." In these past several years I've grown in areas I didn't think I needed growth in but I am grateful. I am grateful for it all in spite of the rough times. And truly the best medicine is to sleep it off and I will get to it when I get to it.. Whatever that is.
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